Deeply Trusting You

So ~ one morning…

I woke up and felt acid reflux rising again ~ something that had been with me for over a year. And as I lay there, I heard something land. Not a thought exactly. More like a recognition.

It's about the inner pressure.

I already knew this. I had known, in my mind, that I put enormous pressure on myself. But this morning it arrived differently ~ in my body. And I understood in a way I hadn't before that this isn't just something I think. It lives in me. Physically. My body had been holding what the mind had thought to understood for a long time.

That was the first profound insight for me. The second was a message. From a woman I care about, who is going through her own challenges. In her response to something I shared, I noticed a familiar trigger: I am not being seen.

There was a part of me that rose up. How dare you diminish what I've been through? The urge to write back, to explain myself, to make her understand ~ it was right there.

And then I stopped. I paused.

I sat down. I held myself ~ physically, really ~ and I rocked gently from side to side. I invited in the part of me that felt hurt. I stayed with her. I acknowledged what she was feeling without trying to fix it or move past it.

It took several rounds. The words of the message kept coming back to my mind. Every time, I acknowledged and gave the hurt part of me space to say everything she wanted to say ~ out loud, just for herself, just for me. I even laughed at one point, at the sheer humanness of it all.

I did a forgiveness practice ~ for myself. And for this woman.

Then… something settled. No more story. Just calmness, tenderness and a sense of inner peace.

So what became possible?

I protected my energy. I didn't send a message explaining myself, defending my experience, trying to make her understand. Not because I suppressed it ~ but because I didn't need to anymore. That life force energy stayed with me. For the things that actually matter.

And even without sending a single word ~ I felt closer to her. Because I didn't meet her reaction from my head, from the part that compares, that defends, fires back and keeps score. I met her from somewhere deeper. From the place that knows we are all moving through our own pain, doing the best we can with where we are.

And underneath all of it ~ I found my way back to something I can only describe as the part of me that is love. That is source. The part that was holding me through the whole thing.

That is what this work makes possible.

And I want to be completely honest with you ~ this is not how every moment goes for me.

I am still human. I get triggered. I go through hard moments. I have a body that is still learning to let go of pressure it has been carrying for a long time.

What has changed is not that the waves stopped coming ~ but that I have built enough practice, enough inner safety, to meet them more often than not.

And ~ I trust myself to move through it.

That has only been possible because I have made time and space for this. Real time. Real space. Not in the margins of a busy day ~ but as a priority.

This is what Deeply Trusting You creates the conditions for.